Tuesday, June 23, 2009

better

I'm a little more confident today.
A little.

One step at a time,
I will learn slowly.
There is no rush.

I need a few more close friends.
I have two little sisters.
(not by blood)
One lives 1 hour away.
The other lives 6 hours away.

I want to be able to call a friend at 10pm at night, and be able to do something.
I don't want to plan ahead several days in advance.
I want a spontaneous friend.

My cellphone is dying, and I can't find the charger.
Ah~ Life.

Korean word of the day: 부지런란 (dilligent)
Used in a sentance: ... (_ _#) I can't. Sad.
I'm still unsure of sentance structure.
So much for dilligence.
Maybe my previous post was true.

Cry my a ri~ver, you can just cry me a~cry me a~ oh, oh...

Monday, June 22, 2009

dreams

It's hard, starting something with no support.
The basics are simple.
한글, alright.
한국어, not easy.
My Korean friends say they will help, but they don't know how to explain what they say.
They can only teach phrases for one side of one scenario.
I need a tutor.
Or maybe to give up?
It is hard to learn on my own.
I didn't anticipate how difficult it would be.
Especially to stay motivated.
I write music instead.
Maybe I can think up a clever way to study while I write scores.
Humm...
don't know don't know don't know

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Choices, choices, choices

So I know what I want to do with my life.
I'm just not exactly positive how to get there...yet.
Goal:
I want to teach English in Korea for at least a few years before I settle down and raise a family.
This seems odd to a lot of white suburbia Americans.
Why Korean?
Why leave the U.S. for something so random?
Do you even know Korean?
Well, firstly, I love the language, and I have a passion for it.
Secondly, it would be a great adventure. Why do you drive to Wal-Mart at 11pm? Just cause.
No, I don't speak Korean fluently. But here's the thing - I understand a bit of it.
A handful of my friends are learning Japanese, and want to go to Japan.
For some reason, Japan doesn't interest me.
Yes, it's different, and it's fun.
But it's not what I really want to do.
If I lived forever, sure, one day I'd get there.
The reality is that I've got about 60 years left to live.
I might as well spend this time doing something I have a passion for.
So, I have my books, and I have my pens, now I just need to find a college willing to help.
Point me in the direction of my dreams, please!
My current university advisor said, "well, you've got an interesting goal, but it won't take you very far. You're better off learning Mandarin if you insist on doing this sort of thing."
Thank you for attempting to crush my dreams mister University Advisor.
Thank you.
And now, I shall proceed to prove you dead wrong~
계절은 흐르고 내 젊은 날 이제 막 시작됐어 눈부시게
그 어느 날 소나기 흠뻑 맞은 채로 찾아낸 무지개처럼
어른이 되가고 친구들은 다른 것들을 말해 그런 걸까?
잃고 싶지는 않았고 갇히고도 싶진 않았던 꿈을 찾아가